I posted a couple of weeks ago that I had been reading Kingdom Woman by Dr. Tony Evans and his daughter Chrystal Evans Hurst. There were a few sentences that made an impression on me; “A kingdom woman is a woman who knows and believes that her solution is not found in money, human reasoning, or other people. Her solution is found in humbling herself before Jesus Christ and surrendering to the Word of God.”
I kept thinking, even though I am a kingdom woman in the making (we are always growing and learning, if you think you have learned it all, you are in denial) I fail at this. We bought a house, a fixer upper. My husband and I have worked hard the last few months on making it our home, that is no longer in the late 80’s or early 90’. We decided to hold off on the kitchen redo and settle for paint. However, we are also entertaining and in the back of my mind I’m worried about what it will look like to people coming in. Just that one statement, truly wraps together the money, human reasoning and other people part doesn’t it? Even though we talked, and decided we need to get on track to be better stewards of what God has given us, I STILL had those pesky thoughts. It is so easy to fall into.
Yesterday I was texting with my friend Natalie about some personality assessments. I tend to think they always reveal my true self, I’m assertive, emotional and a bit domineering at times. I’m also empathetic, merciful and will serve others to my own detriment. This text convo led to her to say, “we have our fleshy natures but in Christ we can do things outside of our nature.”
Natalie’s statement tied everything together, I already knew it, but the Spirit used her words to reaffirm what I had read a few days before. It may be in my nature to push until I get the kitchen remodel, to worry about what others may think, or even rationalize my actions or thoughts. Here’s the kicker, that isn’t who I have to be. To find the answers I need to go straight to Scripture, God has it all laid out for me, I just need to put my pride on the sidelines so I can live to my God-given potential. I can be who He wants me to be, who He has called me to be.
P.S. Below is a pic of us the day we closed. I’m done being a brat and I really do know that my family is blessed beyond measure.
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