So, a friend and I have been doing a bible plan about waiting. Today’s reading had this scripture, “So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised.” Hebrews 10:35-36 NLT I put the words that stood out to me in bold.
I often comment that patience is my struggle. My name is Susan, I am a control freak. Ask any one of my friends, my son or my husband. You could even ask my Dad, it’s his genetics that made me this way! I want to dissect this scripture:
“Don’t throw away this confident trust.“ –Do I trust the Lord? I would say wholeheartedly yes! I would say without a doubt and I would say it with such conviction, you would not doubt. But, if I am completely transparent and honest with even myself, I would say sometimes I don’t. How can I say without a doubt yes, yet try to take the reins? If I trust my Lord and Savior, then I would not try to take control. I would give Him the space and time to work HIS plan, not call an audible and run my own.
“Patient endurance is what you need now.”-Simply put, I need to wait without becoming anxious and I need to do it with strength or without growing weary.
“So that you will continue to do God’s will.”- This hit me for two reasons. The first being that continue indicates I already have. If I pause amid my need for control, I can look back and see where I was obedient to the Spirit and how the Lord blessed me. I have already accomplished this; I just need to keep on.
“Then you will receive all that he has promised.” -I can’t see the blessing God has promised me, if I am trying to keep Him from giving it. I can’t see it because I’m so consumed by controlling the outcome.
As I was reading the devotion and these scriptures, I had a revelation. When I try to take the control back, when I am not patient I might as well tell God, I don’t trust you, my way is better. I know better and I do trust Him. His ways are far better than ours. Forgive me O Lord, when I try to take back control, help me to truly surrender and trust in You, let it not just be lip service but pour from my heart. Amen.
“The Lord is my strength and my shield. I trust him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy. I burst out in songs of Thanksgiving.” Psalm 28:7 NLT
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